To All The Ladies

TO ALL THE LADIES originally posted on ALEXANDRAAAMORGAN

To all the ladies who blame themselves for what he did,

To all the ladies who don’t remember what it felt like to trust a man,

To all the ladies who keep one foot outside the door because the last time they put both feet inside, the door slammed and locked behind them,

To all the ladies whose abuse was written off because it wasn’t the right kind,

To all the ladies who know what it feels like not to trust their own thoughts,

To all the ladies who forget what it felt like to feel safe with a man,

To all the ladies who beat themselves up for their inability to have a “successful” relationship,

To all the ladies who know that emotional abuse leaves just as many bruises and scars,

To all the ladies who had to fight to get back to a place where they felt like themselves,

To all the ladies who can only fall for unavailable men because it’s safer,

To all the ladies who still have his voice in their head and worry that sharing something about their story is attention-seeking, rather than brave,

To all the ladies who are tired of feeling broken,

To all the ladies who are safe and strong single, but feel afraid and small in a relationship,

To all the ladies who have felt unsafe inside their own heads and bodies,

To all the ladies who know that he will never know, understand, or care about what he did, what it meant, and how profoundly it impacted their lives,

To all the ladies who want the world to know that they are here, that their story is just as valid as it was years ago, that they have something to say, and that they deserve to be respected and loved by someone special, even if they don’t remember what that looked, felt, or sounded like,

To all the ladies who had to look at their abuser every day, work with them, attend classes with them, share friends with them, hear their name in casual conversation, or was forced to sit next to them during what should have been a day of only happiness,

To all the ladies who sometimes still put up a front because he made it clear that the real her wasn’t good enough,

To all the ladies who still wonder if they’re the “crazy” one,

To the lady who almost deleted every word of this,

To you,

You are okay. You are more than okay. You are strong, brave, smart, kind, talented and capable. And if sometimes you don’t feel any of those things, if sometimes you don’t even feel okay, that’s okay, too. Remember that time was just a chapter in your story, not the whole book. Give yourself permission to feel, to learn, to know, to experience, to love, and to explore just a little outside your comfort zone each day. Give yourself permission to try and fail. Be patient with yourself. You are not broken or weak or lesser or crazy or to blame or any of those things that he or society told you to feel. You have the look and bearing of a survivor, someone strong enough to go through something absolutely terrible and come out on the other side. You deserve to be validated and fulfilled, and I have faith that you will be.

To all the ladies, you are important and beloved, and your worth is not defined by anything in this world.

To all the ladies.

 

***Relationship abuse can take many forms, and abusers and victims can be of any gender or sexual orientation, not just the male to female example represented below. The after effects of abuse vary widely, but these are just a few examples. If you were moved by this post, you can help by sharing this post, speaking up when someone makes an ignorant comment about abuse, or by donating to worthy organizations such as The Blackburn Center, which works to end domestic and sexual violence. Here’s the link to donate:http://www.blackburncenter.org/financial-support. Thanks for reading.

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14 Comments Add yours

  1. I needed this. Thank you for sharing!

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    1. She’s got a way with words

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      1. Thank you both so much. I’m so glad this brought you something you needed, TheSarahDoughty!

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  2. Barney says:

    This is so beautiful, especially the second to last line! 🤗

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  3. Blue Sky says:

    “To all the ladies who know what it feels like not to trust their own thoughts”
    When I read this statement, my spirit crushed inside of me and I burst into tears. I experience this so much… but I didn’t connect it to him!

    “To all the ladies whose abuse was written off because it wasn’t the right kind”
    And the tears flowed as I read this. I was sexually abused for years as a child, in an abusive marriage, violated and raped as an adult, but still somehow none of this is enough or the right kind or taken place in the right country to warrant support or compassion.

    “To all the ladies who know that emotional abuse leaves just as many bruises and scars” It is hard to make the connection between emotional abuse and the effects you find yourself struggling with years later.

    “To all the ladies who have felt unsafe inside their own heads and bodies”
    This creates a tremendous amount of constant anxiety.

    This post left me very emotional. It was validating and sad all at the same time. It is sad how hard it is to be understood, even by those who love us. This post was like permission to feel and acknowledge the pain that still resides within!

    Thank you!

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    1. The author of this post has a true and unique gift for putting an abusive situation into words. I really resonated with how she said “To all the ladies whose abuse was written off because it wasn’t the right kind”.

      I think almost every part of the healing process can be tied back to this root cause of anxiety and depression. Constantly comparing our situations to violent rape scenes on TV or having to answer the, “But where’s the physical bruising and bleeding?” questions.

      I’m so glad you were able to connect with this piece. That freedom to finally FEEL what you’ve been wanting to feel for so long is just peaceful, even though it’s painful. I know the author has expressed interest in connecting with others who have had experience in rape and abuse, so I encourage you to contact her! I think building that community is healing for both parties.

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      1. Blue Sky says:

        Yes, this was a very powerful post. She touched on so many of the struggles we face and can relate to. To just even feel one emotion that connects me to a part of my life I do not have access to was a huge start for me. I am finding that it is very helpful to read the words of others who can say the things we can not!

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    2. I am so very glad that my post was validating for you. I have tears in my eyes reading your comment and am so sorry for what you have been through and thank you for your courage to share it with us. Please know that you ALWAYS have a right to your feelings and your pain. If you ever want to connect or talk about anything, please feel free to message me! Sending you light and love today!

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      1. Blue Sky says:

        Thank you for so powerfully expressing the deep feelings so many women face. And thank you for all of your kind words!

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  4. Thank you for posting this. So many in this list resonate with me.

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    1. Absolutely! I would encourage you to check out the original blog. She has a lot of good posts about abuse.

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